The other side

Maybe see things from my perspective every now and then. You would fucking hate if I went to someshit filled with Indian dickheads that wanted to ‘get in my pants’ so yes, yes I’m abit fucking pissed of that you’d leave when I’m about to cry on the phone to go to that and hang out with two guys that were ‘seedy’ towards me who you supposedly hate. Guys that cheat on there girlfriends like it’s nothing. So yeah, yeah I guess I’m abit fucking pissed off.

Sometimes I miss you, I look at your Formspring and laugh at all your responses that I can actually hear you saying in my head. I just miss talking to you, miss you making me laugh and your smart ass insults.. my mum’s smile everytime I told her I’m talking to you. I wish I could talk to you again, I want to so badly. But it’s just not me in a relationship. I can’t.. it’s already bad enough that I’m having these kind of thoughts that have regrettably been going on for quite some time.

I still can’t get out of my head what she said to me about you only fucking over ***** because you wanted a slut to know what it felt like to be fucked over, because of a ‘slut’ that has previously done you wrong. I hope you don’t consider me that slut.. I never meant to. I wish I had thought it through, but he was just so different to you. He was kind, loving, caring, compassionate and sensitive. Majority of the things that you weren’t. However that doesn’t explain why I tried to run away from you so far in my head yet missed talking to you every single day. I wonder what things would be like if they had turned out differently, I wonder if we would actually be ‘us’ or still going around in this confusing infinite loop of friendship and jealousy. Again, I’m probably just being typical female and over reading this situation and the past. But I’ll never know, you’ll probably never understand. But that’s okay, I don’t either. I’ll never understand my mind

But maybe it’s for the best, as they say everything happens for a reason. Maybe you’re happy now with someone that truly makes you happy.

In the end, I always fall back to the quote “Those who are meant to be will find there way in the end” so if it’s meant to be him, it’ll be him and if it’s meant to be you then it’ll be you. 

(Source: ethnicfashionpassion, via imfuckinbeautiful)

6 months in and things start to unravel, you lied to be about all this shit. Make yourself out to be the most decent guy who has never flirted with a girl in his life. When I go ahead and find all this stuff, girls you said that you’ve never talked to in your life I see proof of you flirting with them, calling them wifey and them calling you hubby… what the fuck.

i dont understand how you can just hang up , do you even consider how you make me feel. i need to talk this out with you tomorrow i dont think you understand how stressed i am i get belted last night have a fight with you today these next to weeks is all exams i don’t understand how you think its better if you tell me on wednesday do you seriously think that i’m gonna concentrate on my assessments, ive been begging you the whole day to tell me so its one less stress i have to worry about and dont tell me not to worry about it please just see this from my perspectivebton tell me to not worry about it it’s so easy for you to say yet it’s pretty hard to. If i hung up on you like that how would you feel, this whole day all ive wanted to do is tell you that i love you. but before i even get the chance to do so you just say bye. why are you treating me like i’ve done something so wrong. if i have why can’t you just tell me. and why, why do you say shit like ‘go talk to whoever you want to talk to’ you make it out like i wanna talk to every single guy in the world. thats what i mean by MAYBE you don’t know me at all. sometimes you need to realize the only person i want to talk to is you.

my previous relationship was nothing like this just cos it was long

you fix up your mind otherwise were screwed

do you see me chasing after allisha says when she had boubts abt you in the beggining

Thanks for hanging up on me shows that you care aye.  you know um stressed from uni and im trying to keep up with assessments and get on top of everything. you know my daily routine coming home, getting shit from almost everything in my family doing legit everything around the house and everythings  just getting harder. I’m trying to do well in this course. you know that if i fail again i repeat and thats another 18grand gone. i know you say that you tell me to go and do it but i’m sorry that the best part of my day is talking to you. after having a fucking shit day, every single day that one phone call with you everrynight is what makes everything better. please understand that i’m only asking because i wanna talk about this asap, if you really want to show me whatever it is that badly why cant you just mms it to me or better yet tell me what it is, i just want to go back to how we used to be; you dont know how much i worry asnd stress about it. you said that if you were in my shoes you could put this at the back of your mind and carry on with your assignments. it’s not that simple for me. try and understand how much ive got on my plate right now the last thing i want is to be fighting with you do you think i enjoy fighting with you? do you think i enjoy being hung up on. and i’m sorry i know i never show you just how much i care about us i’ve told you before i just cannot show my emotions but im trying im honestly trying..

I don’t understand what I keep doing wrong you’re such a fucking hypocrite. You tell me I act single in a relationship yet I call you when I’m at the hospital and you tell me your talking another girl. You think I have all these guy freinds when there’s really only one guy I talk to on a regular basis.

You treat me as if I’ve cheated on you and accuse me of all this bullshit. You say you respect the fact that he’s my bestfriend when your actions show otherwise.

If you can’t respect me and accept me as I am then just fucking leave.